Saturday, December 31, 2011
New years eve!!!!
Well I'm promised some luvin tonight although it was promised last 5 nights and as usual every night it gets pushed to tomorrow kinda reminds me of that sign you see in bars you know "free beer tomorrow" cause of course everyday when you go back the sign will say tomorrow so tomorrow never comes and ironically either do I lol!!!! Anyway she also promised that she will wear some sexy /slutty outfit she picked up after everyone leaves tonight I'm hoping shes drunk enough to actually go through with all this and I really wish she would drunk enough and caught up in the moment that she starts having me dress up ! OK a gurl can dream can't she?!!! actually this isn't to far fetched I have to get ready for the shindig or swaura and if I'm not to hung over I'll let you all know how the night went and why its a possibility that she would put me in her clothes! Have a Very Happy New Year!!!!
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Me
Hi I'm Jessie I hope by writing this it not only helps people like me to see their not alone but I hope it helps me by getting this out instead of burdening my self with it all balled up inside. So where to start?
Well I'm your average type guy love outdoors stuff fishing chopping wood etc. I'm tall and somewhat muscular I have a rough dirty job I got a deep voice and cuss like a sailor so by no mistake I'm 110% man by all standards. However for some unexplained reason I cannot stop wanting to dress in women's clothing and for some reason its getting to be more and more. I'd like to start by saying I have spent endless hours reading and researching about this and some people will say that people who dress in another genders clothing are just sick deviants others say its very common for reasons such as women don't wear dresses and heels like they did when we grew up and we miss that so we just get obsessed with that image and so we just do it. others say its just an illness or for good or bad its just the way were wired. and yet others say it just what it is no big deal or its just part of our sexuality. I kinda agree in part with all of these but of course I also have theories but believe all of the above play a part in there one way or another.
As you will see and better understand and hopefully can identify with as these posts go on my reasons for the theories I have on this matter.
1) I seem to want to and do dress more when I feel neglected like not having any intimacy with my wife or when I get the feeling like I'm a piece of furniture like she likes the idea that I'm here but that's about it you know when your in a relationship that feels more like convenience then anything else. I said to her the other day "you have a use for me when you have a use for me ie. mow the lawn etc. so I feel that my dressing is like a cry out for attention even though shes never seen me dressed but I feel better . I even posted pictures on social networks as a women and won hotness battles and get 10-30 Friend requests and date/phone numbers sent to me etc. and I feel wanted again I also feel that I got a talent for dressing if I'm fooling everyone one these site both men and women what an awesome feeling but its all just for attention.
2)Then you got the whole I do dirty work and when I come home I take off my dirty jeans and put on my clean jeans ok that's normal but why can a women not only come home and slip on something soft or lacy to feel sexy or comfy but a man needs to were jeans or shorts and why is it women can wear any article of their mans clothes they want where ever and when ever ? I mean my wife is always in my shirts and shorts even my sock but this is ok hell if she comes out in nothing but your boxers and one of your button up dress shirts on as men we get all hot and horny. But now you as a man come home all filthy from work and you just want to get comfy or feel like escaping your day and you try putting on her panties or skirt and hosiery and WTF??? what is wrong with you???? that's gross and disturbing oh my god are you gay??? why should it matter? if I'm me and I've always been me and always will be me and I still protect you and provide for you and kill the spiders and are still totally in love with you and will do anything to make love to you then why is it ok for you to wear my clothing but I can't wear yours?
3)Now the last part sorry I'm going on but it feels so good to get this out and know that you reading this might help you in some way I hope. Anyway so we discovered I like the feel of the clothes I like the risque taboo part of doing it I feel I have a hobby with trying make up and looking as passable as possible , the new found attention I can get and not only from strangers but from my self I like that instead of sitting on the couch I can pamper my self and I also found that when my days going crappy I can get my mind off of it by thinking about what to try or wear and give me something to look forward to. But there has to be underlining things that ultimately cause me to think this way because the time it takes to get all done up to just sit alone and be not be able to share it with anyone or be too afraid to go out dressed and all the time spent hiding your fem apparel and items and the risk of ever getting caught and all the problems that would cause there would have to be more then the reasons I feel that I do it. I believe this also because through out your life you like and dislike different things you can be into golf 100% live and breath it and then never play a round again you could love a certain soda and drink it every day and then never again and you could also hate something for years or never have an interest in it and then next thing you know you love it and can't get enough until one day your done with it . So with all the risks and work involved in dressing fem why is it even when the urges go away they always come back? they have to be on to something about being wired this way.
Well I'm your average type guy love outdoors stuff fishing chopping wood etc. I'm tall and somewhat muscular I have a rough dirty job I got a deep voice and cuss like a sailor so by no mistake I'm 110% man by all standards. However for some unexplained reason I cannot stop wanting to dress in women's clothing and for some reason its getting to be more and more. I'd like to start by saying I have spent endless hours reading and researching about this and some people will say that people who dress in another genders clothing are just sick deviants others say its very common for reasons such as women don't wear dresses and heels like they did when we grew up and we miss that so we just get obsessed with that image and so we just do it. others say its just an illness or for good or bad its just the way were wired. and yet others say it just what it is no big deal or its just part of our sexuality. I kinda agree in part with all of these but of course I also have theories but believe all of the above play a part in there one way or another.
As you will see and better understand and hopefully can identify with as these posts go on my reasons for the theories I have on this matter.
1) I seem to want to and do dress more when I feel neglected like not having any intimacy with my wife or when I get the feeling like I'm a piece of furniture like she likes the idea that I'm here but that's about it you know when your in a relationship that feels more like convenience then anything else. I said to her the other day "you have a use for me when you have a use for me ie. mow the lawn etc. so I feel that my dressing is like a cry out for attention even though shes never seen me dressed but I feel better . I even posted pictures on social networks as a women and won hotness battles and get 10-30 Friend requests and date/phone numbers sent to me etc. and I feel wanted again I also feel that I got a talent for dressing if I'm fooling everyone one these site both men and women what an awesome feeling but its all just for attention.
2)Then you got the whole I do dirty work and when I come home I take off my dirty jeans and put on my clean jeans ok that's normal but why can a women not only come home and slip on something soft or lacy to feel sexy or comfy but a man needs to were jeans or shorts and why is it women can wear any article of their mans clothes they want where ever and when ever ? I mean my wife is always in my shirts and shorts even my sock but this is ok hell if she comes out in nothing but your boxers and one of your button up dress shirts on as men we get all hot and horny. But now you as a man come home all filthy from work and you just want to get comfy or feel like escaping your day and you try putting on her panties or skirt and hosiery and WTF??? what is wrong with you???? that's gross and disturbing oh my god are you gay??? why should it matter? if I'm me and I've always been me and always will be me and I still protect you and provide for you and kill the spiders and are still totally in love with you and will do anything to make love to you then why is it ok for you to wear my clothing but I can't wear yours?
3)Now the last part sorry I'm going on but it feels so good to get this out and know that you reading this might help you in some way I hope. Anyway so we discovered I like the feel of the clothes I like the risque taboo part of doing it I feel I have a hobby with trying make up and looking as passable as possible , the new found attention I can get and not only from strangers but from my self I like that instead of sitting on the couch I can pamper my self and I also found that when my days going crappy I can get my mind off of it by thinking about what to try or wear and give me something to look forward to. But there has to be underlining things that ultimately cause me to think this way because the time it takes to get all done up to just sit alone and be not be able to share it with anyone or be too afraid to go out dressed and all the time spent hiding your fem apparel and items and the risk of ever getting caught and all the problems that would cause there would have to be more then the reasons I feel that I do it. I believe this also because through out your life you like and dislike different things you can be into golf 100% live and breath it and then never play a round again you could love a certain soda and drink it every day and then never again and you could also hate something for years or never have an interest in it and then next thing you know you love it and can't get enough until one day your done with it . So with all the risks and work involved in dressing fem why is it even when the urges go away they always come back? they have to be on to something about being wired this way.
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